Ready to die

I have everything I need for the inevitable encounter that will likely end with me dead. I can imagine only two possible scenarios for the fight: me dying because none of the shit I've compiled works at all (99% chance of this happening); or Slender Man dying/evaporating/ceasing to exist/leaving to recover (1% chance of any of these happening at absolute maximum) because I managed to find something that hurts him.

However, I want to have something along the lines of a fair fight. Don't ask me why, but I feel that any victory would be hollow if it is gained through an unfair means.

Hence, I'm flying off to Germany. I'll wage this war in the Black Forest, where it is rumored that this all started.

Wish me luck. I'm going to need it.

Thank you, Defiled Shepherd, for giving me the muscle memory of a black belt. Those five proxies were a snap to knock out.

I am not normally a very violent person, but I do what I need to in order to survive. When nearly half a dozen people rush at me with knives and crude clubs, I fight back. When a faceless eldritch abomination threatens my life, I try to find a way to kill it and bring some measure of peace to my life.

I can assume that you're still wondering why I've become so focused on killing this damn thing. The answer is as obvious as it is incoherent.

He erased my family from existence.

My mother, my father, my sister...

Sorry, trying to avoid relapsing into that emotionless murderer. I hate what I was then.

I need to kill him. My meaning in this world is to give those around me some measure of happiness. What better way than to kill something that threatens their very existence?

What has been going on in these parts has been, for the most part, insane. This town fell into complete anarchy literally a day after I passed through.

HE was probably pissed that HE hasn't caught me yet.

I'm almost ready to face him. DS left me. Found her a suitable body, very feminine, then let her do whatever the hell she wanted. She thanked me in a way that woke up a few of my emotions.

I'm back. But my revenge comes first.

Just a few more materials. I need a fresh rowan quarterstaff, a ruby, a chunk of topaz, a silver-titanium alloy knife, and a violet laser pointer.

Probably gonna take me at least two weeks to get all this shit.

Gotta tell you, though, my backpack is getting pretty fucking heavy.

Well, fuck. I'm surrounded. Expect another post either within a day or never.